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I don't know what kind of tittle for my story, bcs now my head is full of shit's problem!!! yeaaah, exactly I don't wanna share it but I don't know how to express my feeling, I always crying when I tell this, tell about my life, tell about a thing that unreasonable for me to accept as a reason why did he get away from me?!!!
God, I know your plan for me will make me better on its time. But from 2 days ago, I'm stressed, dizzy hmmmm yeah so many kind of that bad feeling come to my head. 
Maybe I wanna tell first what is my problem to you my dear blogger :")
On 10th of May 2013, 2 days ago I was using a veil to make my self better than before. All of my family supported me, but................ when I came to my boyfie's house he shocked looking to my new appearance. 
"What's wrong with me?", just that words in my mind at that time.
He laughed at me, I'm still calm. But he do it again by his self. Really it's make me down :"----) I don't know what is in his mind. 
Is it wrong if I'm using a veil?hmm but I just smiled to him. And when his mom looked at me, his mom praise me and she was glad to see me like that. Oh my God, it's make me calm again. But when we will go to campus, on the way he smiled on me and me too. But I knew what will he said. Yapppp he said the same thing, I just considered it as a joke. 
And then when we arrived to campus everything runs as usual. When I go to my major, I'm so happy hearing so many people that gave congratulation to me. That's where's I calm again, some lecturers give me congrats too. Yeah, I think my decision was absolutely correct. I really don't know why my boyfie don't like my self when I'm using a veil.
When we go back from campus, on the way he talked again a words that make me annoyed. At that time, I just kept silent and he does too. That time was the first time for us that not talking anymore. Fighting is start at that time :-"(
Then after he take a pray, he texted me unusual. After made some conversation, he didn't reply my message again, till now! I phoned him, I texted him, but no respon. 
Okey, I hope God will give me the best decision to make my self better on God's way. 
Bismillahirrohmanirrohiim.................. Let me start the new day with my veil :") O:)